assalamualaikum. this is our 3rd eidulfitri right? I'm here wishing all the best Raya celebration on your family. For those who will face a hard time after Raya this year, please don't enjoy too much! think about you trial first instead of Raya. otherwise, you will regret in your lifetime future. I'm as student who will sit as a Spm student know how hard to celebrate Raya this year.  Our family didn't have any picture taken. it's only just selfie that we took only with my siblings. I feels upset because our family didn't have memories together. 

      Sometimes , you have a friends who always stories about their happy life. Do they even realize that there will make some people - maybe just me to get jealous just because their happy life's story?. I'm a girl who had a dream to have a happy family like the other family. My teacher always stories about the activity that he had spent with their daughter and son. Wohooo. Its sound nice ! But not for me. Its make me feel like I wanna get one father just like him. He was so responsible toward her family that he managed to take care of them since they was baby until now. But, where is my father ? He also a teacher. but , where is he when our siblings need him? Being with the adopted parents are not as same just like our blood parents. Its have a lot of different. I cannot tell my own feeling towards them because I'm worried if they will have a bad thinking about myself. I love my adopted parents so much but its still have an awkward side when I was with them. i dont know why I am so emotional recently maybe because I stress with my life that are no siblings behind me , no mother near me, and no father for almost 8 years. Huhuhu. ramadhan already come to an end this thursday but I still cannot see my family. This year I will take an exam which is the most killer examination I ever had !