School life gonna end soon! Isn't it sounds great,right? Obviously yeah!
But seriously at the same time I feel so much sad bcs no more chance to play or gather with friends. Always talk nonsense everytime we chat.
4 Paper left!
I still can't believe that I already old enough to have a driving license. My mom said that after Spm I can take a class on driving but she doesn't give me permission on motor class. She cares a lot about me. She thought that riding motorbike can harm my life so that she won't give it. Actually, I had persuade her since last year then she said , " Nana, just wait until you finish the Spm . I'ii give you money to get the car license. Don't worry ".
What can I do. I just can " okay mom" that moment when you saw your friends all know how to ride the motorbike but you don't. I was okay actually but when I still can't hold my rasa bersalah bila terpaks suruh my adopt mother to send me out. Perasaan dia serious rasa menyusahkan. Kita tak nak diri kita dianggap beban but em yela. Salah aku jgk knoe tak nak naik basikal hijo tu. Bukan tak nak tapi tak larat nak kayuh ( actually malas). Jenuh nak pujuk umi(biological mother) bagi aku peluang bawak motor but umi tetap ngan pendirian dia. Umi kata dah banyak kes accident motor tu sebab dia tak nak anak dia bawak motor. Tambah lagi , aku ni jenis yang jalan kaki pon bole accident mana tak lagi dio riso kan? 10 tahun jadi bongsu la katakan. Hahaha. Em redha je la apa yan jadi. Setiapyang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya, ye dok? Takpe nanti terus amik lesen.
lepas tu, umi tanya nak amik lesen kat ne , antara ipoh aau pohong. of course aku kata ipoh. tapi orasng kata ipoh banyak kereta susah. em tapi aku task nak duduk pahang. senanye my parents dah dapat tukar daripada sarawak ke pahang . alhamdullilah. akhirnya ! kalau bole nak duduk ngn umi tp umi jauh nun kt pahang. pahang dah la nak dekat johor. rasa sayang plk nak tinggalkan ipoh ni. ipoh ramai kawan. crush pon kat sini hahhaha. lol.
seriously, tak sangka aku nak tamat zaman sekolah dan masih single tak pernah erjebak dengan dunia couple. aku bangga ngn diri aku.! yeah! pada aku la, org yg tak couple bukan maksud ketinggalan zaman or what but dia nak yg terbaik untuk diri dia. actually, tak nak benda yang sama jadi macam mak aku. pardon my father. em. tak tahu kenapa, aku nak cari orang yang bertanggungjawab, baik ngn taat perintah Allah, ( handsome pon nak!) sebab bila aku cari orang yang macam ni maybe kesilapan kali kedua takkan berlaku lagi. InshaAllah. semoga Allah jodohkan aku dgn org yg beriman. em, kalau org korea pon leh jgk, dia masuk Islam then jadi umat islam yang baik, of course , aku suka dia! pikir masa depan bukan selalu.
Prince Charming
After all the obstacles I've faced, I feel like I was the most powerful girl in the world. Try to think about it again, it's isn't simple for the young girl to manage her life with all the problems that she had until now. A big clap for me !!! Yeeheheeeyyyyy !
I'm not a loner to have a power but also my family. We all suffered the same things together and alhamdullilah we did it ! We success in getting out from the evil's place. Allah gave us a guidance and make us realise what was the truth behind all of this.
From age of 10 years old until now , I'm waiting for the miracle to happen on my family. I want all of us to gather back just like before exclude my father. I don't even excited to see him.
Sometimes people said,
" He is your father , you should not do that. In any points of, he still your father and you need to keep your respect on him. "
People just know to say that word but if them was in my place , Do they will do the same just like me ? We'd a lot of problems after him get out from our life.
Seriously, If he know his own responsibility , do his ever left us ? He might feels a little bit regret to choose the wrong path , but none of those feeling in his life to be exact.
Thanks to him, I feel like I love my mother and my siblings more. I feel so grateful to have them in my life. Being with them really make me feels happy.
Hence , I'm proud to have such a best mother in my life! she knows how to treat me from young until noww auchhh ai love her so much bebehhh. She will do everything to make her daughters live in a comfortable life. She buys our clothes but none of it for her. Sometimes, I feel like I wanna buy her clothes but I couldn't afford for it bcs of my mom a bit shrewish for what she wear. So , I need to work to get a salary then I will ask her to choose anythings she wants in her life.
My one and only superman, Umi .
Saranghae ❤
Sometimes , you have a friends who always stories about their happy life. Do they even realize that there will make some people - maybe just me to get jealous just because their happy life's story?. I'm a girl who had a dream to have a happy family like the other family. My teacher always stories about the activity that he had spent with their daughter and son. Wohooo. Its sound nice ! But not for me. Its make me feel like I wanna get one father just like him. He was so responsible toward her family that he managed to take care of them since they was baby until now. But, where is my father ? He also a teacher. but , where is he when our siblings need him? Being with the adopted parents are not as same just like our blood parents. Its have a lot of different. I cannot tell my own feeling towards them because I'm worried if they will have a bad thinking about myself. I love my adopted parents so much but its still have an awkward side when I was with them. i dont know why I am so emotional recently maybe because I stress with my life that are no siblings behind me , no mother near me, and no father for almost 8 years. Huhuhu. ramadhan already come to an end this thursday but I still cannot see my family. This year I will take an exam which is the most killer examination I ever had !
Mother,
I really couldnt imagine how my mom carry me when I still in her stomach. 9 months she had carry me everywhere she wants to go. now, I have be a teenager.
I know my mother had suffered enough to raise me until i had become like this. When I had 10 years old, my mom had divorce. but, she still take a good care of me very well. Don't you know ? when my mother had divorce with my father, my mom need to carry my younger sister in her stomach. Its already about 5 month that she was carry it but she dont know about that until she going to the hospital.
In april 2010, my younger sister had birth. My mom need to rest about 40 days because of the abstinence after the baby was born. My mom need to manage everything beh herself. when my sister and I going to school and leave her alone, she had do everything to life alone. I know my mother was hurt a lot at that time. but she still can smile to us. When she had finished the abstinence , my mom, my siblings and I need to go to Putrajaya for the changing school. we go there by bus. My mother need to take care 4 of us (my sibling and I ) who are still childlish. after we had arrived in Station bus Pudu Raya we need to searching for the train. can you imagine how my mom control of my sibling with a baby in her hands ? We need to walk to the LRT. we arrived to our destination about 7 pm. How tire my mother at that time. hmm.
In 2011, my mother had broken leg because she was fall in the stair. My sister playing a powder and throw it to the stair and made my mother falling into it. Eventhough, her leg was injured she still try to drive a car to send us to the school and working.
Alot of thing that my mother had confronted since I am not born yet until now.
I know my mother had cried a lot but she still can control herself for not letting her tears drop infront of my siblings. She try her best to be a best mother for our siblings.
I want to make one conclusion in my life ;
My Mother Is My Father
Saranghae Omma !
Kaklong had arrived in Sarawak and she totally enjoy her day with my family. What the fish ! I just stayed her and need to study for the exam. My family enjoyed their time together. I miss my family very much. Please let me be with them too. Its been 4 month i didnt got to see them and spend our time together. Our crazyness , happiness all we shared together. my family whatsapp group was very silent maybe they spend their time with the joy while Im staying here feel so bored. Hmm. i want to go back. i want to finish my exam as soon as possible as that I can have a holiday and spend my time with my family. Huhuuaaaa😭😭😭
Pagi tadi , terlintas dalam hati nak tengok group 3 pd dalam facebook. Hahahaa tengok je terus rindu. gambar dalam group tu saje dh hampir 500 lebih. Ape benda la yg group aku post dr ting2 smpai ting3 dulu. Seriously , aku rindu diorang. Perangai aku , gila aku semua aku tunjuk kat deme ni.
Gambar kelas form 2 ade kat bawah ni. Aku nak letak kat tengah2 tapi tak bole sebab aku berblogging guna fon je. Blog tak syok guna dalam fon actually
tapi sebab aku takde lappy so aku redho je berblogging guna fon. Kelas aku tak cantik sgt time form2 dulu. Masuk form 3 bole la tahan cantik. selalu dpt no 3 je. Yg gbr aku ngn kawan kawan aku tu time
Form 2. Besar en baju aku ? hahaha aku mmg suka pakai baju besar besar. Dah ramai yang tegur psl perangai aku pakai baju besar. Mak aku tak bg aku pakai baju yang muat muat sbb dia sayang anak dia yg comel niii . Mak aku sangat jaga maruah aku. Sayang umii. Hari ibu tak bole sambut bukan bermakna kita tak bole hargai jasa ibu kan. pada aku , setiap hari , hari ibu. Love u omma. saranghaee
Kelas form 2.
kelas form3
Time form 2 dulu
Ruginyaaaa. . Aku bole kot cakap ngan dia tadi. Dia nak amik dah tuala kat tangan aku tu. Tapi aku tak pandang pon dia huhuhu. Kalau aku pandang mestu aku bole start cakap ngan dia dahhh. Ni aku g bagi kat mak dia. Huhuhhu. Rasa menyesal gila gila. Harini yg paling best tp aku rasa menyesal teramat sangat. Peluang hanya datang sekali kot. Kalau aku tak start cakap ngan dia sekarang. Nnt bila lagi aku bole jumpa dia ? Dah la setiap minggu aku berharap nak jumpa dia tiba tiba peluang ni aku lepaskan macam tu je. Huhuhu. Menyesal kot. tak tahu mcm mne nak cakap tp mmg aku menyesal skrg ni. Rugi koy. Kalau tak, aku bole start ckp ngan dia. Takde la aku tanam lama sgt perasaan ni. Huhuhu. Payoh bila ade crush ni. Em . Aku tak penah pikir pon yang aku akn ada crush org yg dekat ngn life aku skrg ni. Huhuhu. tolong laaa. Aku menyesal sangat ni. Huhu pisang tak berbuah dua kali. Tadi time mak dia mintak tuala tu , aku pegi amik tuala kat dapor. Leps tu aku panggil mak dia ' ni tuala ' tapi mak dia tak dengar. Tp dia yang datang. tapi aku takperasan dia datang. Aku terus bagi kat mak dia. Kalau aku bg kat dia kan bestttt. Kalau la bole putarkan masa balik huhuhu. Menyesal pon tak guna emhmm
Huhu. Seriously, dots mmg best gila. Tapi final episode dia tak syok sangat. Dan aku pon malas nak tengok episode last dia. Huhu kecewa kot tak dapat tengok joong ki lagi. joong ki gentle gila dah la hensem . Huaaaa 😭
Seriously , bila kita pendek ni mesti rasa rendah diri tu gila gila tahap gaban bila semua orang kat sekeliling tinggi macam galah. Huhuhu. ade orang kata pendek tu comel tapi entah la. Tak semua orang ada pendapat yang sama. Aku takleh bayang nnt macam mana aku kerja sebab perempuan kan umur terakhir yang dia bole tinggil dalam 16, atau 17 kan.so, aku nak masuk 17 dah tapi nak padam whiteboard pon kena lompat lompat lagi. What the fish 😌. Huhuhu. Thats why aku prefer laki tinggi dari pendek. Mana tak nya , aku ni dah la pendek. Takkan la nak genetik aku pon pendek macam aku. Tapi en, aku pelik jugak. Mak aku selalu kata ' nana tinggi '. Dia tak tahu ke yang kat sekolah aku la antara student top 10 dalam ukuran ketinggian ni. Huhu. Takpe la, mak aku bagi kata kata pembakar semangat untuk aku bersyukur. Hahahha. Alhamdullilah sependek pendek aku ni, aku masih bole berjalan kesana kemari. 🙊😂
