school spm

School life gonna end soon! Isn't it sounds great,right? Obviously yeah!   But seriously at the same time I feel so much sad bcs no more chance to play or gather with friends. Always talk nonsense everytime we chat.   4 Paper left!   I still can't believe that I already old enough to have a driving license. My mom said that after Spm I can take a class on driving but she doesn't give me permission on motor class. She cares a lot about me. She thought that riding motorbike can harm my life so that she won't give it. Actually, I had persuade her since last year then she said , " Nana, just wait until you finish the Spm . I'ii give you money to get the car license. Don't worry ".
What can I do. I just can " okay mom" that moment when you saw your friends all know how to ride the motorbike but you don't. I was okay actually but when I still can't hold my rasa bersalah bila terpaks suruh my adopt mother to send me out. Perasaan dia serious rasa menyusahkan. Kita tak nak diri kita dianggap beban but em yela. Salah aku jgk knoe tak nak naik basikal hijo tu. Bukan tak nak tapi tak larat nak kayuh ( actually malas). Jenuh nak pujuk umi(biological mother) bagi aku peluang bawak motor but umi tetap ngan pendirian dia. Umi kata dah banyak kes accident motor tu sebab dia tak nak anak dia bawak motor. Tambah lagi , aku ni jenis yang jalan kaki pon bole accident mana tak lagi dio riso kan? 10 tahun jadi bongsu la katakan. Hahaha. Em redha je la apa yan jadi. Setiapyang berlaku pasti ada hikmahnya, ye dok? Takpe nanti terus amik lesen.


lepas tu, umi tanya nak amik lesen kat ne , antara ipoh aau pohong. of course aku kata ipoh. tapi orasng kata ipoh banyak kereta susah. em tapi aku task nak duduk pahang. senanye my parents dah dapat tukar daripada sarawak ke pahang . alhamdullilah. akhirnya ! kalau bole nak duduk ngn umi tp umi jauh nun kt pahang. pahang dah la nak dekat johor. rasa sayang plk nak tinggalkan ipoh ni. ipoh ramai kawan. crush pon kat sini hahhaha. lol.

seriously, tak sangka aku nak tamat zaman sekolah dan masih single tak pernah erjebak dengan dunia couple. aku bangga ngn diri aku.! yeah! pada aku la, org yg tak couple bukan maksud ketinggalan zaman or what but dia nak yg terbaik untuk diri dia. actually, tak nak benda yang sama jadi macam mak aku. pardon my father. em. tak tahu kenapa, aku nak cari orang yang bertanggungjawab, baik ngn taat perintah Allah, ( handsome pon nak!) sebab bila aku cari orang yang macam ni maybe kesilapan kali kedua takkan berlaku lagi. InshaAllah. semoga Allah jodohkan aku dgn org yg beriman. em, kalau org korea pon leh jgk, dia masuk Islam then jadi umat islam yang baik, of course , aku suka dia! pikir masa depan bukan selalu.